Disclaimer: The article you are about to read are the opinions of my own and not affiliated with any type of organization.
When I graduated from nursing school in May of 2019 and successfully passed the NCLEX in June of the same year, I had no idea how much life would change in the matter of six months. I remember celebrating the Christmas holiday with my family and everything was normal. That all changed in January of 2020 when the world was struck by the Covid-19 virus.
At first the hospital I worked at was talking about making the employees basically live in the hospital for two weeks at a time leaving our families fending for themselves while we were away working. There was so much we did not know and quite honestly it was scary. The experts were saying at the time that the elderly and those with pre-existing medical conditions were the highest at-risk group to contract the virus. Many thought that if you were young and healthy you did not have much to worry about. I am here to tell you that is epically wrong. I have seen young people without any medical problems whatsoever die from the virus and on the other end of the spectrum I have seen elderly people with multiple medical problems contract the virus and not have hardly any trouble at all. In my opinion, there is no rhyme or reason when it comes to the Covid-19 virus.
So many said that people die every day from the flu virus, so how could Covid be any worse? I do not have the numbers to support that argument either way, but I have seen way more people die from Covid than flu. I have also heard so many people say this virus is fake and it’s a government conspiracy. I personally do not get involved with politics, so I could care less about the whole conspiracy theory, but I am here to tell you this virus is for real. How am I qualified to make that statement do you ask? I have been working in the ER as a RN through this pandemic. I am not saying I’m an expert, but from everything I have witnessed this virus is not a hoax or a joke. No one will ever really know accurate numbers of infections vs deaths, but people are dying every day from it.
The one thing that I find interesting is how people feel safe wearing these paper masks. The CDC says that wearing any type of mask will reduce your chances of contracting Covid by 30%. I am a numbers guy so please forgive me if I do not feel safe knowing that wearing a mask not rated to stop the virus still leaves me with a 70% chance of getting infected. The only masks that truly work to stop the virus are the N95’s. If you have not worn them before, imagine getting punched in the nose by Mike Tyson repeatedly for twelve hours. You cannot breathe in them and the pressure they put on your nose and/or face is borderline torture. There are all kinds of articles out there saying that rebreathing your own CO2 can be detrimental to your health. I do not know about that, but at least you have true protection.
I fear everyday that I can bring home the virus and infect my family. That is something that is a true risk involved with working in the medical field, but at the same time I take all the necessary precautions to prevent that from happening. My wife works as a Hospice RN and has the same risks as I do, but we are very passionate about caring for those in need. I have spent the better part of 28 years in the medical field, and I have no regrets. I am a firm believer in God places us exactly where he wants us. As many of you know, I spent 24 years of my life as an EMT and Paramedic. Then I decided to better myself and went back to school to become a RN. It was the single greatest thing that I ever did. Why am I telling you this? Because when I leave this earth, I want everyone to know that I spent my life caring for others. It is funny, I am constantly told by my patients that I am so nice and caring. My response to them is I am old, chubby, and bald. I need a great personality because I do not have anything else going for me.
We are tired, we are stressed, but we choose to put on scrubs every single day and put other people’s needs ahead of our own. This includes going hours without using the bathroom or eating. We do this because we care. We want to do whatever we have to do to help our patients with healing in their time of need. God and health willing I will be able to keep doing what I love for many years to come.
I realize that some of the content in this blog may not be popular, but these are things that have weighed on my mind since the Pandemic first began. I hope one day we will be able to look back at this and learn from it just like when HIV first erupted in our country. Stay safe everyone and together we can get through this. It may pass like a kidney stone, but it will pass.
Jerrid Edgington RN